Hmmmmmm....

.... well this is weird. It is 7pm at 18dpo and no AF. I realize she could just be late but a big part of me really wants to be pg. So in the am I am going to test. I have R's full blessing and he is going to go in late so he can be here when I do it. I am nervous about testing. But this is as late as my period has been. I just want to know at this point.

I have allowed my hopes to get up way to high this cycle. I have thought about how I will tell my mom if I am. I have thought about telling DH he needs to go get the test from the bathroom and how if I am pg this cycle where that will put me at all the events coming up, including my b-day, our anniversary, and BIL's wedding. I have thought about telling my sis and her kids when I see them next month. I won't be past the 3 month mark but I don't think I could keep it from them once I get there.

Yup my hope is SUPER HIGH! CRAP.... I really didn't want this to happen this cycle, the hope I mean.

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It is now just past midnight of the next day. Still no AF, still no idea of if I am pg or not. I want to share a realization with you: it is CD34 So since the longest cycle I have ever had is 31 days I think there is .... hope. Okay I said it. I have hope!