Friday, January 18, 2008

Another visit with the Dildo Cam

Before I start the actually post I want to make something very clear. I am in a bad foul pissy mood these days. I cry a lot, and get mad and angry for no reason. Very little makes me smile and just about everything upsets me. This is how my life is right now, there is no sugar coating how I feel here in blog land because that would defeat the WHOLE purpose of this blog. I put on fake smiles for EVERYONE else in my life but not here. If you don't like it don't read, but for those of you who have been reading for a while and commenting I hope you stay. Just please understand that right now I am feeling quite low. Thank you.

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Well I had yet another visit with an OB, this one I had never seen before and honestly hope I don't ever have to see again. He did a pg test via urine -, and an ultrasound to look for pg - but we did find a nice cyst on my right ovary. He told me that most likely this is what is causing me not to get my period. :( He also said the lab mixed up my progesterone test this cycle, and gave me last cycle's info. I did not actually ovulate. double :(

He went ahead and ordered more blood work including a pg test via blood work. He is also checking my blood to confirm where in my cycle I am. I will get a call back tomorrow about the blood work and then if AF doesn't show by Feb 1st then they will give me provera.

I just hope she shows on her own. I don't like drugs fucking with my hormones, unless they are meant to get me pg.

PS If you are reading my blog and want to comment fine but read the warning to the left FIRST. As I have said before, I am in a foul bitchy mood and since this is my blog will respond to comments however I see fit. Also I am happy to give other t-ttcer bloggers the benefit of the doubt when they post things like "I just know you'll be a mom one day" anonymous responses don't get that benefit of the doubt. Sorry if that seems unfair but such is life!

3 comments:

Jen said...

Aw hon, I'm so sorry you are feeling so down. I completely understand. Just know you aren't alone.
Sending you virtual hugs and chocolate to help lift your spirits.

Trish said...

Well, I personally think you need to just get over yourself and model yourself after me. In case you haven't heard, I'm Mary Sunshine. ;)

Seriously.. if you can't be bitchy when you're going through hell.. well, when else?

And while I certainly hope you'll be a mom someday, I understand understand the cringe-reaction when people try to "assure me" that "everything will be just fine."
I'm a member of a couple of message boards that aren't baby related, and any time I've updated them with any info, I've added an addendum that says "PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. YOU DON'T KNOW THAT."
I'm sure they think I'm some sort of psycho bitch, but it's true. They don't know.

Diana said...

I hate saying it but YAY for AF! May she never appear again!