Desperate Housewives just ended and it was a sad one. Not because anyone died or got bad news. Actually at the end we find out that Lenette's cancer is gone. But Bree's daughter who has been out of town due to her teen pg returns and has the baby. Her last scene is of her giving the baby to her mom to raise and saying how hard it is. I was near tears to begin with and DH then thought that was the moment to kiss me on the head. I stoped him because any affection at that moment would have made me cry. Why he doesn't understand how much this hurts is beyond me. Honestly I am not a good actor so either he is totally blind or ignoring my pain. Either way it is hurtful. Our marriage is having issues and I think therapy is in order. I plan on calling our medical insurance in the am to see what is covered. I love him but I feel alone.
I think I have come up with an end date for us trying. If not pg by December of 2009 I think we will put in papers to adopt. That is 2.5 years of trying with 'normal cycles' and it is long enough to wait in my mind. I haven't said anything to DH because for him I am sure it is to soon to give an end date but for me I need to know that my mind won't be consumed with this forever.
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this episode really got me. Danielle had said just days before how much she hated the baby and couldn't wait to get rid of him.. and then it was so hard for her to say goodbye...
How long have you been trying? December of 09 is over 2 years away.. so it must not be that long...
Rachel: I have been off BCP for over a year now but had no cycles for 9 months.
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