long LP = Delima of when to test

Some days I wish my LP was normal. I know I am SOOOO lucky not to have and LPD and have it be short but seriously the three extra days of waiting kill me. I am 9dpo and like most cycles this is where hope turns to anxiety. I just want to KNOW already. I know I could test early but that always ends badly because it makes me so sad. I am trying to decide when to test. I am thinking not till after AF is due. I so rarely make it that long though. AF is due the 13th. So if I can hold out till the 14th I have a high chance of being pg if she isn't here yet. However there is no way I am going to make it that long. My BFF Shanshan is right, I will probably test Monday.