Spaz Attack

So two nights ago I had a majorly emotional night. I was freaking out again... "what if I don't O" "what if something is wrong like R has ZERO sperm" what if" "what if" "what if"..... and I just wanted to cry. But I couldn't. I realized though that I felt out of control. There is nothing more I can do to improve our chances of getting pg. So I made up my plan. It is my What if plan. It has my next few steps. I am hoping to not need them as I am ovulating at any second. But I have them if I do, and that makes me feel better.