I am a big chicken! (UPDATE)

For those of you who know today was test day, I am posting this. Since I don't get a beta (pg blood test) this cycle, I was suposed to POAS (pee on a stick= home pg test). Well I completly chickened out! I got up at 6 am and wimped out. I didn't feel like testing after a big fight with R last night. Everything is fine now and honestly it was a stupid fight about him not taking his vitamins. So now I am hear having to decide, to test or not to test? If I do test (hahaha) it will be Saturday, if AF doesn't come before then, (which I don't think she will). hmmmmmm...... maybe I'll test tonight....... nah.........

Update: BFN


In other news my mom is driving me up the walls. I have spent the last months helping her get the house in order. It is a continues job since she continues to buy and get crap she doesn't need or use. Today I told her I was frusrated, calmy and rationaly, and she told me that it was her life, and she could do what she wants. So I said fine, but tonight R and I talked and we agreed when my sis leaves town that is it. I am not helping her daily. We will spend 3 hours once a week there helping her. I/we have had it and if she really is going to move then she needs to be able to have her house on her own.

Of course R and I have come to this point so many times before and I always go back to helping her out. I hope to break the cycle now.