Lessons Learned

I didn't sign up for NaBloPoMo this year but I am going to attempt it anyway and try to do 30 posts in 30 days. I have some old issues I really need to workout before baby gets here, some stuff about my father, some stuff about a med free labor, and some stuff about becoming a mom.

First on my list

Infertility taught me a great lesson about life: sometimes you can't pull yourself up by your own boot straps no matter how hard you try.

I have always know this about other people. That sometimes the world and existing powers do everything to keep you from succeeding, but I never realized it would apply to me. Infertility taught me this and has made me more understanding of others struggles. I now see people in forecloser, people in poverty and others unable to power themselves upward in a different light. I am more aware that somethings happen despite trying our best for them not to. And now I know that this was my lesson, that if God really has a master plan for everyone (and I am not saying he does) that this was why it took us longer than most to conceive. God was trying to teach me, that sometimes despite how hard we try life will continue to hand us lemons, or derail us from our dreams.